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Changing Heart
Sitting in the daylight
Staring at the clouds
I don’t understand
Why my heart does not stay the same.
I am happy I am sad
I am crowded I am lonely
How can I be laughing then so silent?
O’ Changing heart -you hurt me.
Sitting in the moonlight
Staring at the stars
I want to live my life
But how too- is split apart
I want so much attention-
But I hide in the shadows
I want to make something of myself
But I don’t seem to try hard enough
Why o changing heart
Do you do such a thing
Why do you unbalance my emotions?
If Im so normal and fine
Why does everything spin
I feel so sick
It wont cure-why…why..
Changing heart stop!
Images of the ocean
I feel life slipping- frightened
But yet feel so much more alive
Why do you mix me up
Why o changing heart.
Why fall in love with him?
Someone who is illustrated?
But you made me believe
That he is so real- he is…
But where will this get me?
I will be locked up soon
Though I already am –I am breaking free
But everyone will see me
and then throw me in
Why?
I don’t understand-
You don’t understand either
or do you?
My friend
O changing heart.
I feel so sad- I don’t want her to leave.
My dear friend, my dear friend
I want to help too!
But I also want to come.
Is everything we say a lie?
Is it a non livable dream?
Will you even bother to leave to live?
Adventuring – I cant so it without you.
Our dreams- our dreams
Not just mine
Not just yours
Ours- to fulfill together.
I can’t go alone- but what if I must?
I can’t be alone- but wasn’t I always?
I’m so Empty, empty
Feeling way too full
O’ Changing heart you hurt me
My mind –I see no logic.
I see nothing when I use my mind
My mind is blind- but my heart
So cruel is the only way I can see.
O cruel wicked changing heart-
You make people wary of me
You make them worry- when I want them not.
You chase the ones growing close- away.
You let one come close-
Now, she’s caught- you wont let go-
She might not be there forever
You will only hurt yourself.
Wicked heart don’t do this
You pass illusions by me
Wicked heart so cruel
Surely you’ll die before me
So possessive
So demanding
So delicate
You try to control me
But I see you
I will try to be sure I’m in control
Don’t make me cry
Let me burn but don’t make me hurt
I will win I will set it straight
I will awaken my mind and tell it to open.
Oh heart you cannot be the centre
You will be only one hand let my mind rule the other
Or you will lead to the destruction of us both.
O changing heart-
I hope you heard me
O’ changing heart
I hope you care
O changing heart
You hurt yourself
You hurt me
But let me take the controls
And let us go together.
Sitting in the daylight
Staring at the clouds
I don’t understand
Why my heart does not stay the same.
I am happy I am sad
I am crowded I am lonely
How can I be laughing then so silent?
O’ Changing heart -you hurt me.
Sitting in the moonlight
Staring at the stars
I want to live my life
But how too- is split apart
I want so much attention-
But I hide in the shadows
I want to make something of myself
But I don’t seem to try hard enough
Why o changing heart
Do you do such a thing
Why do you unbalance my emotions?
If Im so normal and fine
Why does everything spin
I feel so sick
It wont cure-why…why..
Changing heart stop!
Images of the ocean
I feel life slipping- frightened
But yet feel so much more alive
Why do you mix me up
Why o changing heart.
Why fall in love with him?
Someone who is illustrated?
But you made me believe
That he is so real- he is…
But where will this get me?
I will be locked up soon
Though I already am –I am breaking free
But everyone will see me
and then throw me in
Why?
I don’t understand-
You don’t understand either
or do you?
My friend
O changing heart.
I feel so sad- I don’t want her to leave.
My dear friend, my dear friend
I want to help too!
But I also want to come.
Is everything we say a lie?
Is it a non livable dream?
Will you even bother to leave to live?
Adventuring – I cant so it without you.
Our dreams- our dreams
Not just mine
Not just yours
Ours- to fulfill together.
I can’t go alone- but what if I must?
I can’t be alone- but wasn’t I always?
I’m so Empty, empty
Feeling way too full
O’ Changing heart you hurt me
My mind –I see no logic.
I see nothing when I use my mind
My mind is blind- but my heart
So cruel is the only way I can see.
O cruel wicked changing heart-
You make people wary of me
You make them worry- when I want them not.
You chase the ones growing close- away.
You let one come close-
Now, she’s caught- you wont let go-
She might not be there forever
You will only hurt yourself.
Wicked heart don’t do this
You pass illusions by me
Wicked heart so cruel
Surely you’ll die before me
So possessive
So demanding
So delicate
You try to control me
But I see you
I will try to be sure I’m in control
Don’t make me cry
Let me burn but don’t make me hurt
I will win I will set it straight
I will awaken my mind and tell it to open.
Oh heart you cannot be the centre
You will be only one hand let my mind rule the other
Or you will lead to the destruction of us both.
O changing heart-
I hope you heard me
O’ changing heart
I hope you care
O changing heart
You hurt yourself
You hurt me
But let me take the controls
And let us go together.
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I wrote this during my "confused state".
My two closest friends are constantly asking me if I have a depression problem.
As far as I know I am totally healthy- medically- but emotionally- I tend to have extreme ups and downs that are EXTREMELY clsoe to eachother- so literally Im super happy one minute and the next minute I'm totally crushed. Im not a drama queen- not near that but my friends are always worried because of the TYPE of sad I get- its not the teary eyed or emo type sad- its like an EXTREME lonely not talking super mellow sad- almost emotionless. That I geuss gets people. Well This poem kinda describes a few things in which people who are involved will understand entirely - a lot of hidden hinted things that noone but my friends might get or know who im talking of. Other than that yeah. Im mellow right now and Im conflicting.
Kinda sucks.
but hey in a few minutes i'll be happy again.- Maybe i need help- mabe this is me -who knows-
demon girl
My two closest friends are constantly asking me if I have a depression problem.
As far as I know I am totally healthy- medically- but emotionally- I tend to have extreme ups and downs that are EXTREMELY clsoe to eachother- so literally Im super happy one minute and the next minute I'm totally crushed. Im not a drama queen- not near that but my friends are always worried because of the TYPE of sad I get- its not the teary eyed or emo type sad- its like an EXTREME lonely not talking super mellow sad- almost emotionless. That I geuss gets people. Well This poem kinda describes a few things in which people who are involved will understand entirely - a lot of hidden hinted things that noone but my friends might get or know who im talking of. Other than that yeah. Im mellow right now and Im conflicting.
Kinda sucks.
but hey in a few minutes i'll be happy again.- Maybe i need help- mabe this is me -who knows-
demon girl
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Aw, sweety, that poem made me cry. I know that I'm one of those close friends who worries about you, this is only because I want to look out for you and protect you from sadness, I'd rather see you happy, my darling little Chantell, that's why I can always make you laugh when you're quiet. Anyway, you should PM (private message) me and tell me if any parts of this are about me. Sure, I should be able to pick them out, but when I'm crying because of your poem, it's hard to think with a logical mind.